Mr. Evilynmo is Leaving

Mr. Evilynmo got an assignment to go to Africa for 6-8 months starting Jan. 12, 2007. To say I am sad is just not enough. I am kinda devastated, I will miss him so much. He is gonna miss Evelyn's first steps, her first words, so many firsts. When he leaves she'll be a baby but when he comes back she'll be a little girl. And me, well I am gonna just cry every day from now until he comes home. It hits me in waves, kinda like a contraction. I am so thankful to have him. I am so scared and sad. He should be safe, it's safer than Iraq, but still, I fear for his saftey and his return to us. If you are the praying kind please pray for his safety while there and his safe return home. Any ideas on how to cope with this are welcome and any and all support is welcome too.

Anything I Want

I love picking my daughter's boogers, love it, she of course hates it, but me, I love it. I love picking boogers in general, it's like going on a treasure hunt. Mr. Evilynmo won't let me near his face because on one of my "hunts" I accidental gave him a bloody nose, oops!

The New Yorker is one of my favorite magazines, so is Us Weekly. I love L.O.V.E not watching television. We don't have cable, so we watch DVDs of our favorite shows over and over again. We also get netflix, which is awesome. 3 exciting new titles every week or so, glorious. I do not miss commercials.

Baby Einstein is a crock, let your kid play with toys and watch mobiles, save the $25 and freaking play with your kid!

Exclusively Pumping breast milk is not that bad. I am what they call a HVP, high volume pumper. I get 10 oz extra every day and as a result I am using my parents freezer to store milk for me because I can't fit all of it in my freezer. We are gonna buy a deep freezer soon. Because I don't have a deep freezer yet I have to give Evie frozen milk now so that it won't go bad in my attatched freezer. I hope she'll take it with no fuss, we'll see. Tomorrow is my first try.

I made my daughter bleed and I dropped a toy on her today. I am feeling pretty crappy about that. I was clipping her nails and I cut to far down and she was bleeding...shivers, that is so not what I wanted to do to her! And the toy was light and didn't really damage her but she was not a happy camper for about 10 minutes. Ugh, I hate it when I hurt her, it is so not good.

I am day dreaming a trip to Florence, Italy for a week next Fall, renting a villa in the heart of Florence and just going to all the museums and churches and drinking wine and speaking Italian. The baby can stay with Grammy and Gramper while we go away for some much wanted vacation. Ahh, my favorite game to play is daydreaming. Florence is the most amazing place I have ever been, I absolutely adored being there 5/6 yrs ago, it was glorious!

I love this, I can rant about whatever I want. World be damned, I am gonna write what's on my mind, random and unfocused as I want!

Picture caption: Daydreaming us in Italy...

Thoughts on momness

Being a Mom is so weird. I expected to change my values and beliefs as soon as I saw my daughter, but I haven't. I thought it would be easy to live my life the same but with a new friend, but my life is nothing like what it was before she got here. It's impossible to get anywhere fast, it's impossible to get anywhere in the morning, because that is when I get the bulk of my sleep. It's impossible to go on a date with Ben without calling home to check on the baby. It is so weird. BUT...it is all worth it because it's her, all she has to do is be herself and my life before her is just a lame memory. It is so weird how fast all that changed. I do miss stuff, like wearing normal bras, being able to be away from home for more than 3 hours, being able to do what I want when I want, sleeping for 8 hours in a row. For those that are contemplating having a baby, which is probably not many of my readers, I say go for it, just be ready to fall in love so hard that you will be willing to give everything, all of it, more than you would ever sanely give to another human being ever.
Oh and by the way, she is the most fun friend I have ever had, no offense to my buds, but Evelyn is the COOL-EST person ever! She makes me happier than anybody I know, and in a way that is so different than anyone I know. It is definitely weird... but awesome.